Fire

آری، آری ، زندگی زیباست زندگی آتشگهی دیرنده پا برجاست گر بیفروزیش، رقص شعله اش در هر کران پیداست ورنه، خاموش است وخاموشی گناه ماست سیاوش کسرایی / / / / / Life is like fire, can burns forever. If we turn it on we can see flame dances from far away, other wise its dark and thats our fault.

I so don't like it when my argument with familly member will be talked over with other ppl, regardless how close that person is. and because there is a tention in the conversation, the whole things would look like a big family deal.
some how it looks liek when we find some one who is not living with us, we ( as suppose as me and one specific family member) start talking about the arguments and all the complains we have from each other. and the conversation will heated up, and we just try to prove our points to the thrid person, which would never gets to any where.

the thing is we don't kill our self in private, life is not as bad as it shows in our conversation while there is the third party. I consider our home really peaceful. and I know there is more love peace and comfort in our familly in our private rather than most of the families, but i don't know why we act like retarded when there is some one else is, and why our conversation mostly ended up to complaines, seems like when we see some one we consider him/her as a judge and we try to prove our points.

and i so don't like it, I feel it makes it look so retarded from third person point of view.

Seems like it that i have to really take care of this, if it bothers me ( I don't think it bothers the other person at all) I have to be careful not to fell into that trap, and regardless how much complain i have , i just shut my month and not say any thing. specially cause these sort of conversation they don't solve any thing, it would just give a headache to the poor third party that has nothing to do with the story beside the fact that he/she is related to us, and also gives out too much unnessarily and extra private information. and makes us look like angry people.